i cant understand myself. This past few days have been cold for me. Even though the heat of the sun toasts everything under it, i still feel cold...really...
cant say it, all i did was to read and read and boom...
i must admit, i'm bored.
besides being totally bored, i reall cant find the words to express how deeply i've fallen... and yet, im being bombarded by bombs.. explosive ones...
ones telling me to stop.
One day i was trying to organize my thoughts and finally, i thought of something. Maybe calling a friend would be good at that time. And for the first few minutes...it was. Talkin about everything that has happened to each other the past few days were really great. Achievements, happenings... almost everything.
Until emotions came rumbling...
We talked about the people we are related to... and eventually, talked about me...
well, the usual friend would normally take things easy at first.. opening up things slowly and then opening up more things...
From that moment on, i knew some things im not supposed to know... geezz....
i was quite right...those days that i felt like a lot of peopple was mad at me...they were really mad. my friend then was no exception. Further explaining to me everything.
There was nothing to be mad at. I understood everything, besides, past is past.
Til the moment came. i asked my friend if she's taken...
i didnt hesitate, and i didnt know why???
I was shocked. Yeah it was the answer i didnt expect...
from then on, my friend told me to spend a little more time with my self...i may regret it if i kept on running after her....yeah...
but im still on the benefit of the doubt... dunno who am i going to trust....
i've totally fallen...i am..i admit it.. but the bombs came falling with me and even worse, theyre attached to me! now im plunging... deep in to the cold waters....
S.O.S.
im drowining....coz i've fallen...in the wrong way...
