Wow... inaagiw na ang aking mahal na blog!
after a month na walang entry, eto na ako at gagawa ng pang update! hahah!

Fist of all, i got the title from a computer game named Starcraft. The goliath is a Piloted Robot. Yan ung sinasabi nya pag kini-click cya ng mouse!..

GOLIATH ON-LINE! parang ako. ngayon lang ulit nag-online sa blog! o dbah! relating 2 things kagad!

moving on, wala lang.Buong araw umulan ngayon, nakakaasar. Ayan tuloy,nakakatamad ang palabas labas ng bahay. pero, ang maganda, malamig! ayos noh..

onga pala! mai ayan... dahil inask mo ko kung meron na ba akong bagong entry, eto nah! il make one nah! haha...



hmmm...alam nyo ung kaibigan kong yan, wala akong masabi. Sobrang sipag. Slim na nga, matangkad pa... pwede na magmodel!(o
! wag aangal! ) peace tayo mai ah! ha? ha?

moving on..

napapansin ko lang na minsan, kahit na galingan ung performance mo sa isang bagay, parang ayaw makisama ng mundo sayo.. inayos mo na nga, feel mo, wa epek pa ang ginawa mo... hay... hirap ng ganun ano?

isa pa. nakakayamot din ung mga tao sa paligid paminsan minsan.. may mga taong super makisama...meron din namang parang wala lang... meron naman ding nakakaasar... ilang beses din na nagyari sa akin un nung isang linggo. may mga taong insensitive din dahil kung magsalita sila, di muna nila iniisip yungsasabihin nila.. nagkakaron tuloy sila ng kaaway... diba nga, "learn to put urself in the place of others" - compassion... ayan...

ayan.kung merong mga kaasar na tao sa paligid, meron rin namang mga "Hands-Down" ka sa sobrang ayos! ung tipong, di nakakainis kasama... ayan... sila naman toh...

Sila ung tipo ng tao na sasamahan ka... ung tipong di ka ilalaglag sa harapan ng crush mo kung nagkita kayo at nagkataong kasama mo ang mga kaibigan mo? diba? haha.. sila ung mga taong, nakikiramay sa pagpasan mo ng mundo... ung tipong babagsak ka na sa math pero dahil may kaibigan kang katulad nila, parang feel mo papasa ka pa rin.

Meron ding super makisama... kahit dalhin mo sa isawan, go! ang maganda nun, mas marami pa syang isaw na kakainin sa yo! hahah,, asteeg noh? hay... ang pinaka gusto ko sa lahat, eto..

yung taong sensitib. (oo alam ko spelling ha.. ) hahah paumanhin!

Kasi ganito yan... pag nakaenkwentro ka ng taong ganyan, akala mo, cya ung tipong, maingay, minsan tahimik, pero sa totoo lang nakikiramdam sya... inaalam nya ung mga bagay bagay sa paligid nya, di sya nahuhuli sa mga nagyayari...

oras na dumating na ang salitaan blues, andyan cya, mag sasalita, pero hindi siya tackless... hindi nya hinahayaang makasakit sya dahil sa pananalita nya... tinitingnan nya rin kung may masasgasaan syang tao sa bawat salitang lumalabas sa bibig nya... galing dbah? parang ansaya ng mundo kung lahat ng tao...marunong makisama... may sensitivity...

hay...saya... ayan mai... meron na akong naisulat... impromptu.. hahaha.

kaya minsan kailangan lang talaga makakuha ng encouragement para magsulat..

gaya nung ginawa mo

Salamat.

Let me review a few lines...

"Ive gone away and went through hell and back.."

-Take No-


"Cause tonight, ill leave my fears behind, cause tonight, ill be right at your side..."

-Broken Sonnet-


*"If you could only know me like your prayers at night, then everything between you and me will be alright..."


-The Day You Said Goodnight-
*favorite


"On the wings of love we faltered, a day with you a big disaster"

-Wishing-


"...Dont be afraid to run away, coz i know you'll be okay"

-Here Tonight-


"Hindi ko man hawak ang panahon, pati ang ikot ng buhay, bastat ikaw, at ikaw pa rin, ikaw at ikaw pa rin.."

-Kahit Pa-


"Theres a Blue Sky waiting tomorrow, waiting tomorrow, shining and shimmering"

-Blue Sky-


"Why cant we risk our lives for something we cant deny?"

-Life Support-


"This time im sure what im looking for, and thats what i want you to know, and i wont ever let you go..."

Undeneath the Waves


"You loved me to the point where i was lost, and i just couldnt catch you there....right there.."

-Runaway-


"My conscience is huritng my ear, but im happy as long as you are..."

-Bent Down-


"hindi ko maisip kung wala ka..."

-Kung wala ka-


Thats it, thats how a set of 12 songs affect me, and everything, my thinking, etc...


One more request...

Pls do react on a line..thanks!

Hell week's finally over. After A ton of studying made, think i deserve the weekend to relax and unwind. Aaminin ko, para akong Panda na laru ng laro araw araw, mapapagod din pala pagdating ng panahon. hahaha! Panda!




Tueday: medjo kinakabahan pa. kasi unang major exam ang sasagutin namin. Building Utilities (in layman's term, Plumbing) yah, may subkect kaming plumbing, para lang nag lelayout ng mga tubo for water to flow to different parts of the building. Medjo kinaya naman. I hope i to pass that exam na ren.

NExt subject? Physics. Ansaya. Open notes ang physics! kaya lahat na nang pwedeng ilabas, nilabas ko. hindi naman ako mcyadong nahirapan... pero may blanks ako... grrr! sayang! whats done is done.


Wednesday: Me was kinda prepared this time. kaso ung prof namin, di umasok ng maaga. Hindi raw nya napaalarm ang clock nya sa oras! hahaha... imagine pumasok si prof na medjo bad-hair-day..kaya ayun, she had to postpone the exam for next wednesday...heehee, breathe sayc, breathe.!

In my design, i took some ideas from the Banaue Rice terraces and the sydney opera house! fusing the two in to one sort of Housing by a ridge in Tagaytay! asteeg! now im talking places nah where i can start the project! ahaha!


Thursday This was tough! History of Architecture ang subject saka VT. in HOA, we discussed Pre historic, egyptian, assyrian, and babylonian archi. Medjo makapal ang librong kailangang basahin kaya what i did was write each and every detail sa yellow pad folded lengthwise. Turo kasi sa amin, para makatipid ng papel, fold it lengthwise and then take down notes. kaya ayun! and i was surprised to see that, almost everything i wrote on that sheet appeared in the exam! ayan! ginanahan na ko mag test!


Pagdating naman sa VT, sobrang inspired ako, kaya pinili kong i paint ng watercolor ang Sydney Opera House! asteeg kasi ung structure! nasa paligid nya ang tubig, kaya accented ung bldg! hahaha! its a very nice building in all perspectives!

Friday: and here comes the final day. Last day of Hell. Theology was "kaya-ble" not the type na ineexpect namin sa klase na exam where it consumes us whole dahil di namin alam ang mga isasagot! ok naman cya... Multiple choice. Sa papel na ginamit, para na rin kaming nag UPCAT kanina... heheheh!!!

Building Techniques Exam was fun! basta may brochures ka ng mga finishing ng bahay, paints, tiles, floorings, doors, glass, lahat un,,, buhay ka na! kailngan lang naming mag specify kung anung gagamitin sa isang floor plan.. more on finishing touches sa bahay and the materials im going to use to decorate it! Fun cya!

And this one spoiled the fun. Calculus. Alam nyo ba ung feeling na sobrang interesting ang isang bagay pero arang ayaw ng isip mong makipag cooperate... kahit anung aral gawin ko sa Calc, grrr! ayaw! pero, good thing, naka recall ako ng ilang concept, pero baka hindi nga lang ako makakuha ng magandang grade sa calc... grrr.... kaya ang Solusyon naming mga mag kakaklase, para matanggal ang stress?

DotA! hahaha... (Defense of the Ancients) heehee...


ayan... that was my week... im hoping to get good grades on Some subjects... and hoping to pass some subjects too! Fighting to Survive...heehee....

Thats the Panda's story.

What a week! what a week! after tons of exams, results were given already this afternoon and i never expected everything to turn out like this.

Got my Major exam Grade, Design. I got an 88/100 in a conceptual analysis of what were goin to draft next. ( a ridge house somewhere in tagaytay!). Cool, all i have to do now is to worry about my Major plate and transfer it to a bigger board. A 20x30 that is.

Calculus comes next. I came to school almost empty handed if not for the notes of my classmates. hahaha! geez! i managed to get a 76/100, way past the passing mark. Lady luck sure was on my side that day i guess. oh happy happy day for calculus! whats good is that im beginning to understand everything already. go sayc, go!

History of Architecture. 59/80 is the mark... not quite bad, i really studied hard for HOA, i think its a well deserved grade.

What astounded me the most was Building Technology. I got a Perfect score! its actually my first time in college to get that kind of mark! well the test wasnt really the objective type, its basically filling up the materials needed to construct a house. (cement, tiles, finishings) it really feels good! really.

and heres more, The student council finally accepted me as one of their staffers! In fact, i already started my work this morning in the office. The people im working with? they rock, i never thought that our president acts lchildish at times and our vice president gives a mean stare. Our Auditor is cute, she speaks well and yes, i was intimidated at first...hahah! Our treasurers a very good comedian, malambing pa magsalita!. The secretary's quite silent, (kasi im not introduced to her yet kaya cguro ganun...) hahaha, but i think she's nice. Those were the SC people i met this morning. Now, i have to prepare for more work aside from Vih and Class president obligations and other stuff! SC, here i come! hahaha..

that actually wraps up my day, im off for a 3 day retreat in Caleruega. Hope this works out well for me. I really need divine intervention nowadays...

Thats it... im off.

For the last three days i had my shot of divine intervenion in Caleruega,Spain... of course, im joking... hahahah I had participated in retreat in Caleruega on the breezy mountains past Tagaytay and my three days there, were all so awesome! hear me.

The cloudy afternoon welcomed us together with the cool breeze of hanging amihan blowing towards the whole area. after that, an orientation was given to everyone about the house rules and the basics of the retreat itself. afterwards, the Going-to-the-cottage part.

We were assigned to a cottage near the church itself. And mind you, Caleruega has its church on top of the hill. Its called the transfiguration chapel. The altar was backed by 3 stained glasses portraying the transfiguration of Jesus Christ. The Chapel also rocks! it has a choir loft were we stayed most of the time and it really looks sacred outside with its brick finished exterior and a bit modern inside. The Tabernacle table was made of Driftwood and metal carvings of the blessed sacrament. Nice Chapel... but like everything else, it is accompanied by an urban legend: MUMU thing. need i say more?

Moving on, the first session expired with the choir practicing songs for tomorrow evening's mass. We were asked to sing some songs on the spot as an opening prayer but we fared not quite well with our first round... the bad performance caused us a bit of trouble...but was later on compensated by our performance in the Holy Mass.

I therefore conclude: Day 1. Disaster.

2nd day of the retreat. Woke up as early as 6 in the morning to prepare the breakfast of the retreatants and after that, their alarm bell rang. It only means its time for breakfast. The serving of food was kinda strict with the time. So after 730, no more food is going to be served. Not unless its ones life at stake.

After breakfast, we were asked to go to the orientation hall. There our prof, sir warren, asked us to sing Lead me Lord. This time, everything went well... nice nice nice! After the prayer, i gathered the choir in the church to do some vocalization which everyone badly needed at that time. So, we commenced.

Lunch at last! a good serving of Caldereta was given to us.. hahaha! we really munched on it for it was indeed the best "ulam" served all throughout the retreat! I even thought of something. In retreats, the people are served with REAL FOOD. not the typical bitin-type of serving with the rice overflowing and the ulam is junk... hahaha! anyways... food wasnt that much of a problem in the duration of the retreat, its buffet every Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner!

Afternoon? no scheduled activities. A good time to recharge ourselves and exploit the view that was before our cottage. From there, we saw how big the land of the Dominicans were. Not even a fourth of the whole area was Caleruega! imagine that. we got tired at one point and found ourselves knocked out.

Its nighttime once again. We prepared for the Holy Mass and everything went well! we really wanted to make up what we did wrong in the first night of the retreat. So everyones vocalization worked, everyone was reaching high notes, including me while playing! (INSPA-EERD!) hahahaha! It started and ended up with a BANG!

as culminating part of the whole retreat, a bonfire was made! Its the best part of all.. having everyone in front of a fire lit place was cool! really! after wards.... read the succeeding line.

Sleeping time... hehehehe.

The third day. (which is actually today!) was quite boring. everyone woke up late because everyone slept..Late? hahaha, we ate breakfast. A late one. a Merienda. and of course, lunch. We had sinigang for lunch and we departed for Manila.


Now, let me share my thoughts.

1)I have proven that a pack of crackers and a few bottles of C2 was a great combo for kwentuhan espescially parts were each and everyones lovelife was being talked about as if theres no tomorrow...wahhh...

2)Having 2 Guitars brought is good! espescially if a companion is really addicted in playing it and is soooo carried away that he wouldnt care to stop for bussiness.

3) As ive said before, Retreatants are served with REAL FOOD.

4) MUMU stories are good topics every night. Espescially if there are rumors that ur room is being haunted by Them. (hala!)

5)The crush list population is Sky Rocketing! (wahahaha sayc hahaha!!)

6) Jam with the retreatants= New acquaintances. haha(for me ah.)

7) Having developed codenames for your roomates because of their actions.
example. Me= Tanga, my friend: BOBO, my other friend :ADIK hahaha...

8) Having to share the room with the ladies means we have to wait for years before they finish their session inside the Common CR. hahahaha! (personal experience)

9)No Junk FOod = BORING RETREAT

10)God is everywhere. (self explanatory)


That was my share of the whole retreat. A really really good dosage of Divine Intervention... Now im back to reality, its like im floating and not able to think about the activities of the succeeding days... well, i must wake up now...time to get some things done, or else...



God Sees the truth but waits....
- Leo Tolstoy-

Ive been the needle and the thread
weaving figure eights
and circles round your head

I try to laugh but cry instead
patiently wait to hear
the words you never said

Fumbling through your dresser door
forgot what i was lookin for
try to guide me in the right direction

making use of all this time,
keeping everything inside
close my eyes
and listen to you cry


Im lifting you up
Im letting you down
Im dancing til dawn,
Im fooling around

Im not giving up
Im making your love
This city's made us crazy
and we must get out


This is not goodbye she said
it was just time for me to rest my head
She does not watch she runs instead

in all these jagged streets and into my head
well i was fumbling through your dresser drawer
forgot what i was lookin for
try to guide me in the right direction

making use of all this time
keeping everything inside
close my eyes and listen to you cry

Im lifting you up
im letting you down
im dancing til dawn
im fooling around

Im not giving up,
im makin your love
this city's made us crazy
and we must get out

Theres only so much i can do...

after all the things you put me through..



im lifitng you up,
im letting you down
im dancing til dawn
im fooling around

im not giving up
im makin your love
this city's made us crazy
and we must get out...

pakiramdam ko.. luluwa na ang mga mata ko.... ewan ko kung bakit...